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08/06/10 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Note from Trace: A nice moment to pass on to you.........When we put the girls to sleep tonight (After making up chapter 47 of "Anna and the Magic Pajamas", she asked if she could take her rosary (the one I gave her last year) out of her drawer and pray with me. (first time she has ever asked to do it together) She looked at me and asked, "who should we pray for?", and then she told me about a friend of hers whose daddy was "in surgery", and thought that would be a good idea to pray for him. After that she asked if we could switch rosaries and "pray for GranDaddy"....halfway through she looked up and said.."we probably should say a few beads for Smokey too...." Cute stuff...
Keywords: Prayer
Lifebooks: Anna
,Anna
When you hear the words "Dance Budda", what thoughts come to mind?
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
02/08/10 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Today I paid an 'emergency' visit to my cardiologist. Looks like things a ticking OK but we are going to "watch it closely". On the way home I stopped a Whole Foods in anticipation of yet ANOTHER snow storm! While checking my out, the clerk looked at my purchases and, with a beautiful smile, he said, "stocking up, I see" and put my four items in my bring-along bag. I smiled back and said, "Yes, good wine, a quart of strawberries, a crisp baguette, and a packed of 'Tranquility' bath salts, what else do I need to whether this storm...?" He laughed out loud and said "I want to read your book". He just made my day..and I think I cheered him a bit...nice...
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Lifebooks: Christine
My chubby Teddy bear find was staring out of the plastic bag that he was stuffed in when I bought him at the flea market. I pulled him out, inspected all of his seams then tossed him in the washer with a gentle soap and left him to soak for a hour or so. Later I ran him through the full wash cycle. (Can you IMAGINE what he might have been thinking!) and then I ran him through again with a lavender fabric softner. Then he was pitched in the dryer on 'very dry' for about 40 minutes.
Keywords: Teddy Bears
Lifebooks: Christine
04/14/09 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Coming back from McLean, I stopped at a flea market to 'stretch my legs' and found myself rummaging through a bin of old Teddy bears. Suddenly I saw a chubby brown bear with more 'Teddy charisma' than I have ever seen in a bear. He was round and soft and very huggable. I bought him for .50.
Keywords: Teddy Bears
Lifebooks: Christine
This afternoon I went to hear the Virginia Consort's mid-season concert. They performed Bach's Credo, a work that Bach created for himselfm which was not characteristice of his time. Artists and composers created for their employers, and for money. It was a powerful piece. The movement, 'Resurrectix' was so beautiful that I realized when it came to the end that I was not breathing.
Keywords: Music
Lifebooks: Christine
03/01/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Tonight I came to dinner at your house and you showed me your new room with your 'big-girl' bed. It was fun watching you show your new room to Eileen and Ashlynn and to Chris Garrison's twins, Marshall and Ava. When your Daddy was little, he moved into his 'big boy' bed when it was time for Uncle Shep to be born. He got up every night for weeks!! One night he got up for the 100th time and Granddaddy 'threatened' him with a spanking if he got up again. He did and Granddaddy spanked him (barely). Grandaddy was so upset! It was the only time he ever spanked your Daddy. The next day Grandaddy came home with a big, beautiful, shiny, red fire truck for your Daddy. It was his 'guilt present'. Your Daddy was very determined and very curious when he was little. You remind me so much of him. I would like to tuck you in my pocket and sneak you home with me--forever.
Keywords: Stories
Lifebooks: Anna
I went to my dance class and it was cancelled because of a scheduleling mix-up. I was disappointed but, based on the events of last night, something told me it was for the best. I went back at 8:15 to the 'Cha-Cha- class and had a good time. For 45 minutes, I forgot about my physical self. I decided to stay for the dance at 9:pm. I had a really good time but was only able to stay 30 minutes. As I drove home, I thought that maybe I should give this up. As I fell asleep, my decision was that I will not stop trying to dance. It is just too important to me now. I hope I can talk someone into going with me to the 'showcase' on the 29th.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
02/29/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Well, it seems that my 'great escape' from cardiac disease has suffered a blow. I have had chest pain and arrythmia for about 2 weeks. I cut the class in Richmond today short because of the pain and dizziness and came home to rest. When I lay down, it got worse so I knew this was bad. I went to the emergency room and spent the evening on a stretcher. Ultimately, the cardioligist gave me the bad news. Apparently I have pericarditis again. I just lay there stunned, knowing that the boys would be mad that I didn't call them and knowing that Amy didn't care. I resolved to try not to think about Amy anymore because it literally hurts my heart to think about the fact that she does not care about me. I just don't know why. I am alone now and the full reality of that aloness hit me as I lay in the ER watched all of the chaos around me that I know so well. I told them to unhook the EKG and discontine the IV and I got up off of the stretcher and drove myself home. Que sera, sera.
Keywords: Hearts
Lifebooks: salty
Tonight I went to the dance studio and worked some more on learning 'the Hustle'. It was an interesting mix of students. A math professor, a physician friend of mine that I worked with at OLOP and a young man of 14 years, and a man about Amy's age who is the son of a nurse I once worked with. We did the 'arm gymnastics' which I found difficult. My partners were very patient. I reflected on how dance cuts through the barriers of age, race, time and position. We all struggled to make the moves our own, repeating them over and over in slow motion until finally the bodies move in syncronicity, trained to the music. What a satisfying experience. We are all reduced to children for 45 minutes learning new moves, discovering things about our bodies that we didn't know it could do. And expressing things in our hearts that are the essence of who we really are.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
02/22/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Tonight I went to the Friday dance party after my lesson. There is a little lady who comes every week dressed in a purple dress and a purple hat. She is about 5' tall and I would guess around 80 years old. She is a very good dancer but her frailty shows. I enjoy watching her because it is apparent that, before her body betrayed her, she was a very good dancer. One of the more beautiful things that I observe at these dances is the number of young men, who come regularly, who always ask her to dance. They are so gentle with her--doing all of the 'moves' that she knows so well, but with such care so as not to be the one who breaks the fragile doll that she has become. It occurs to me that this mutual love of dance creates a giving spirit, a kindness, and a joy that the world needs more of.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
Today is your Daddy's 37th birthday. I thought you might like the story of 'the beginning'. On the night before he was born, Granddaddy and I went to the Albemarle Dinner Theatre. (I think it is now a Volvo dealership or 250W). The play was 'Dark of the Moon'. We had a great dinner of filet mignon. During intermission of the play, a young lady wandered through the audience and played the guitar and sang. When she came to our table, she sang the song 'Snowbird', a song by Anne Murray which was very popular at the time. As she sang, my lower back hurt more and more. I suspected it was the start of labor but said nothing. The evening was so pleasant. Your daddy was born the next day at 1:15pm. I sang the song to him all of the time after he was born. If you want to hear the original version, visit this site and listen: http://youtube.com/watch?v=c2VYP0FCAUE&feature=related Grandaddy cried when he saw your daddy the first time. You are so much like your Daddy.
Keywords: Birthdays
Lifebooks: Anna
02/14/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Tonight I went to a Valentine party wine tasting sponsored by Ecco Italy. It was held at "Crush" a new wine shop in Belmont. We started with a Proseco with fresh strawberries and then tasted our way through Spanish, French and Italian wines as three language teachers taught the crowd how to offer expressions of love in italiano, en espanol, & en francais. I can now say "I have the hots for you" in all three languages: in italiano: "ti disidero, mi attrai" en espanol: "me atraes" en francais: "tu me fais craquer" How useful will that be?! The surprise treat of the evening was a drawing for a private wine tasting at the time of the winner's choice for 10 guests! I WON!
Keywords: Valentines
Lifebooks: Christine
Visited Greta's new school website at ISAVEL.it I am ready to go back to Italy! I think I will try to make a trip in May or October. It would be a good time to research places to stay when we go as a family in'09.
Keywords: Italy
Lifebooks: Christine
02/03/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Today I watched you for a few hours while your Mom & Dad went to pick up a new dining room suite (a table for you to hide under). We played 'dogs' and you got to pretend that you were a dog. In the middle of the game you looked at me and said, "You can be the Grandog"!
Keywords: Dogs
Lifebooks: Anna
I tried to write a poem one day and Applied all learned techniques. Metaphors and similies were to me sublime I pieced them all together and It made me feel so fine. But there is more to writing poetry Than putting words together. There's more to writing poetry Than looking at your day. Poetry comes from a heart That has something to say.
Keywords: Trying
Lifebooks: Poems
02/01/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
His fingers expressed the longings of an abused child, expressing what his lips couldn't say. Black keys, white keys were the alphabet of his soul. His discovery: the world is not black and white. His mind traveled from white to black and black to white a million times and in those journeys he found all color, all vibration, all feeling. He recorded the notes to perfectin. Corrections are rarely found in his notations. What other venue could so perfectly allow the expression of a child's soul? His genius died at age 31, broke. His body washed away from pauper's field in a flood.
Keywords: Mozart
Lifebooks: Great
,Artists
Last night I dreamed that I woke up from a nap and opened the kitchen doo to fix tea and the door banged into something. It was you! You were hiding behind the door. You were in pajamas and your hair was blue and rolled up on rags. You screamed, 'surprise' and laughed and ran. Amy started chasing you down the stairs. She was in pajamas and her hair was rolled in rags, like I use to roll it when she was your age. She had on pajamas with glitter all over them and her hair was also spray painted blue. You were having the best time playing with her. I thought to myself: "How in the world did they get here?!" Then I fixed my tea and sat down at the table and listened to you and Amy laughing and playing downstairs".
Keywords: Amy,dream
Lifebooks: Anna
01/30/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Today I turned my 2008 Christmeas calendar that your Mom & Dad gave me (a day early) from January to February and there you were grinning, with Cassie at your side--Miss February 2008! It made my day! Love, Gran
Keywords: Calendar
Lifebooks: Anna
2007 Christmas cards from me and made me realize that we 'salty' DePaul nurses have reached the age that we are dealing with many of the ills that we have dedicated our lives to helping others overcome. Aging alone is difficult. We are alone for different reasons, but alone is alone. I hope that we will be able to show our love and support for one another by communicating through 'Lifebook'. I hope they will join be and tell me what they need--like we did at 'The Pride' and the Tea Room.
Keywords: Pride
Lifebooks: DePaul
01/30/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
I am pleased with myself! I finished 'Great Expectations' before the end of January. It has been a long time since I was so excited about a work of fiction. I now understand, what I have always been told is true, that Charles Dickens is a if not 'the' literary giant of 19th century England. In the end, Pip gives realizes the illusion of expectations, gets a job, asks for forgiveness, and 'gets real'. Next: Pickwick Papers of Tale of Two Cities?
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
Today is the first time I have seen you since Christmas. You were asleep in your Mom's arms when you came in. You wouldn't go to sleep in the crib when you realized that you were at Gran's. You gave me the best sleep hug! We had vegetable soup and pastrami sandwiches for lunch. You played "pass the mustard and the knife' during lunch. Each time you got the mustard, you spread some on an oyster cracker and passed it back and then asked again...and again. So cute.
Keywords: Mustard
Lifebooks: Anna
01/25/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
If you are wondering how the New Year's Dance Gala went, it was great fun. 'My Fair Lady' at the Kennedy Center was excellent! Watching the pro-am dancing was impressive. Terry Dean and his students, and my friends, were excellent! I was both impressed and intimidated. Sunday I went the the new Harman Center for the Perfoming Arts (the new Shakespeare Theatre) to see 'Tambourlaine' by Christopher Marlowe. It was heavy! I could really see the combat between Marlowe & Shakespeare. I walked back to the hotel, in the dark and the cold drizzle. A bold thing to do in DC. Somehow taking such risks completes something in me. One more time I challenged danger and won. Tambourlaine courted danger and always won but ultimately it was his 'fatal flaw'. Walk fast, stand tall, be in charge and don't carry anything of value (evil people can smell gold) and you will get by...a philosophy that has served me well.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
Pip, Miss Havisham, Mr. Pumblechook, Provis Magwitch. What characters. You can almost see them breaking through a dirty London Fog. The most loved--just "Joe".
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
01/24/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
"Take nothing on its looks; take everything on evidence. There's no better rule" It looks like we would rather choose a president on looks and words, an error we seem doomed to repeat. Dickens made this observation late in life, after layering on the varnish of the gentleman and then suffering the pain of trying to scrape the varnish away.
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
"It is a principle of his that no man who was not a true gentleman at heart, ever was, since the world began, a true gentleman in manner. He says, no varnish can hide the grain of the wood; and that the more varnish you put on, the more the grain will express itself." Pip learns the burden and illusion of varnish. These words found their way into my 'reading journal'. The goal of these entries is to determine if I fairly grasp Dicken's intent in this 550 page work. Intrigue Humor
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
01/22/08 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
"Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I cried, than before-more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle." Pip leaves home and learns the lesson of loss--leaving home--the one of which he is ashamed. He does not understand his tears. ' Have read this years ago but was not able to understnd what Dickens is saying until now. This last book is filled with life's wisdom
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
Nearly the end of the 1st month of 08 and I am making my first entry. Started the year in DC, dancing. During my 3 day 'retreat', I resolved to read the most famous works of Charles Dickens. I started "Great Expectations" this weekend and I am hooked! What a wonderful character 'Pip' is. a line that struck me most was; "It is a most miserable thing to feel ashamed of home". It sets the stage for Pip's journey from orphan to 'gentleman' and his great expectations.
Keywords: Expectations
Lifebooks: Dickens
12/27/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
A busy day getting ready to leave for my 4-day 'vacation' in DC. It is the first time that I have packed for plays, dance and a black-tie event. It is still difficult to go alone but the friends I have made at the dance studio make it easier. I am excited to watch them dance in the different events.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
You would have gotten a real kick watching your mom & dad watching you. You were a perfect lady at the Christmas Eve dinner. When we sang carols, you picked up on the ideal of 'conducting' while singing, quickly. I found myself watching you, watching all of the adults and realized that you might have a much stronger sense of the adult world than you are given credit for.
Keywords: Parents
Lifebooks: Anna
12/24/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
To Trace and Allison's for dinner with her family. Met Christopher's wife--she is lovely--Iiked her instantly. We sang Christmas carols. Anna sang and 'conducted'. Trace cautioned me to "watch for deer" on the way out. As I weaved around the road to Rt. 29, watching for deer, I laughed to think of my most despised Christimas song: "Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer". Read until 1:am--how to do the West Coast Swing.
Keywords: Christmas
Lifebooks: Christine
Finally sent a few Christmas cards. I am always prompted to do so when the 'late' cards come in. I find it interesting that they are from my oldest friends. I just know they do the same 'should I bother', 'I know I should' routine. Ultimately we always do. I am so glad we do. They are the best Chrismas treasures, my friend's stories..
Keywords: Friends
Lifebooks: Christine
12/23/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
I watched "It's a Wonderful Life" for the 40th time. Every year I am more moved by the sentiment of the movie--how different life would be without each of us. It really makes you think about how important you are in the grand scheme of things. I think we are all George Bailey's at some point in our lives. Today was Allison's birthday. I delivered her gift yesterday. I am looking forward to Christmas Eve with Allison, Trace and her family.
Keywords: Christmas
Lifebooks: Christine
Invided Nuala to lunch today for her birthday. Had a "proper" Irish tea with bisquits, fruit, etc. I gave her the quilt that I have been working on for 1 1/2 years. She was very touched and pleased. She is such a good friend.
Keywords: Quilts
Lifebooks: Christine
12/19/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Got back back from Roanoke around 6:pm. I was going to go to the dance studio but just too tired. Will try tomorrow.
Keywords: Work
Lifebooks: Christine
Taught the 1st day of a 2-day class in Roanoke. I am excited about being finished for a month. I am looking forward to getting caught up on all of my writing and to planning for 2008 training.
Keywords: Work
Lifebooks: Christine
12/17/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Had an interesting phone conference with VAA. Possible opportunity for ACEC. The lunch with Trace and then Dr. appt at Northridge then to Roanoke. What a day! It was late, and dark when I got to Roanoke and I was exhausted!
Keywords: Hectic
Lifebooks: Christine
Today was our family Christmas party. It was both a pleasant and a melancholy experience. Amy didn't come. Trace and Shep were missing their Dad and talked of him a lot. It was fun watching all of my "grandlings". Anna gave me the most beautiful hug. For a moment I had a lightening memory of all of the patients I have hugged over the years. I realized how important those hugs were to them. Anna is a magic little creature who gives a powerfully warm and sincere hug.
Keywords: Hugs
Lifebooks: Christine
12/11/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Had my Christmas lunch with Shep today and then met with the head of health sciences at PVCC. She offered me a job at $45.00/hr. Something to think about, I guess. Was going to dance class tonight but the day was too full and I am too tired. Will go tomorrow night. Getting ready for the family Christmas gathering on Saturday.
Keywords: Work
Lifebooks: Christine
On December 10th, 1940, Patty was born. On December 10th 1987 my father died. On December 10th 2003, Carl was buried.
Keywords: December 10th
Lifebooks: Christine
12/10/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
This evening June and I celebrated our annual Christmas dinner at Copacabana. As usual, we caught up on the children and grandchilren and then spent more than 2 hours reminiscing about Christmas' past. I have her her gift, a book about a a little dog, "Mutt's" gift of nothing to his friend "Mooch". When I got home, I found the tape of Carl reading "The Little Fir Tree". I'll take it to Shep tomorrow for him to copy for the grandchildren.
Keywords: Nothing
Lifebooks: Christine
Today I put all of my picture ornaments on the tree--Trace as a lamb, Shep at R.E. Lee, pictures of Eileen, Anna & Ashlynn. Most of them were given to me by Amy. Given the state of things, I doubt that I will get any this year. I will miss the chronology. But I will miss her more. I am aware that Trace & Shep are more aware of the loss now that they have their own daughters. I am constantly planning how to fix things. I have an idea cooking---in my head.
Keywords: Daughters
Lifebooks: Christine
12/07/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Dance class this evening. I am making progress. Learning patterns and moves keeps dancing in my head. Was able to forget the patterns a bit this evening at the regular Friday dance. I am asked to dance more often now and there are a couple of people that follow without thinking as much. Pear Harbor Day today. Amy's birthday tomorrow. I have been thinking of her all day.
Keywords: Dance
Lifebooks: Christine
Unable to work today. Sat riveted in the chair where Carl's death bed was. Each minute of the day played over in my mind. I could hear him breathe. I could feel him never breathing again. I went dancing tonight. For the first time, I was able to dance with feeling. I guess I was dancing with Carl again. People were surprised at the change. What a strange sad day in my head.
Keywords: Loss
Lifebooks: Christine
12/06/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Yesterday I met Allison & Trace at the OB/GYN to watch Anna during the sonogram. She was asleep in the car. When she woke, she ate graham crackers, drank all of her water and instructed me to open and close the car windows and catch snowflakes on my coat. She was told that she is going to have a little sister and she looked very pleased. Five granddaughters. I wonder what we will call her?
Keywords: Granddaughters
Lifebooks: Christine
Went to see and hear the Vienna Boys Choir at the Paramount last night. They were very good but not nearly as good as what I hear on the radio. I was distracted by the constant thought that these little boys were much to young to be dragged around the world for profit. The most satisfying part of the evening was watching the fun they had singing "I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Clause" and watching the audience give them a standing ovation. Vienna, Mozart, child exploitation whirled in my head.
Keywords: Vienna
Lifebooks: Christine
12/03/07 Subscribe to Salty's Lifebooks
Today I watched a video clip of an 8 year old girl teaching the world how to have happy thoughts. She put a glass of red juice in a big bowl and identified it as the red liquid as 'brain with bad thoughts'. She poured a pitcher of clear water, which she called the 'brain with good happy thoughts', into the glass. The pitcher was bigger than the glass, but when she finished the glass was clear. Conflict among my children stays red in my head.
Keywords: Conflict
Lifebooks: Christine
